Equal parts thrilled and terrified
Equal parts thrilled and terrified
I'm still not sure I want to share this, but here it goes...
To be clear, I don't think I owe anyone an explanation.
But sometimes when I write it's so therapeutic and I wonder could this help someone else?
Plus, I'm committed to pushing myself outside my comfort zone and being vulnerable to a list of 1,106 subscribers fits the bill.
P.S. So much gratitude to you for being here. That still blows me away.
Alright back to the thing I wasn't going to share: I'm considering quitting.
Let me back up.
Before the Ireland retreat, I had this nagging feeling that I wanted to quit hosting. And despite all of my best efforts to ignore it, it wouldn't leave me the f alone.
I told my besties/co-hosts about it when we were together prepping, and I made a commitment to them and myself that I was going to table it until after the retreat so that I could show up 100% for our guests.
Once we got to Scotland, it was still there, and I scheduled a call with my coach to work through it.
If you've ever had the absolute delight of waking up and hearing a crystal clear message from the universe, then you will completely understand when I tell you that I woke up the next morning and heard "Costa Rica and Scotland".
And that's it.
I abandoned all plans and reservations for Acadia, Belize, and TC despite the fact that they were ready to go. I had spent months getting them to that state but that message made me, without hesitation, shut it down.
Do I think I'll host them in 2025?
Good question, and I'd really love to know the answer, but I also know that not knowing is ok.
All I know right now is that I'm desiring more space and simplicity.
Ed Sheeran (please tell him I'm a huge fan 😘) puts out an album and then announces he's going to go live life so that he has something to write about and then vanishes from the Internet until he's promoting his next album.
That's how I feel.
I gotta go live life.
Pursue my curiosities.
Be inspired.
I took my two favorite hobbies, yoga and travel, and made them my career, and I'm navigating if that still serves me.
Is it perfect the way it currently is?
Does it need to be re-packaged?
Do I need to pursue new passions?
Unsure. But I'm committed to surrendering to the process instead of forcing an outcome just so that I can feel in control.
So, I'm taking a partial sabbatical next year to figure it out. I have no idea if next year will be my last year hosting in person. We'll see.
Not to be dramatic, but today is the last day to register for Costa Rica and Scotland before they are released to the public.
And if neither of those work for you, we still have room in Olympic, TC and Costa Rica this year for you to join us.
We can talk about all things space, surrendering and just being.
At the very least, join me in abandoning what no longer serves you.
After all, we only have right now.
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My name is Anna VanAgtmael, and I am retreat host, travel designer, and a certified yoga instructor with a passion for yoga, travel, and connecting with others.
I believe in trying everything once. My values lie in collecting memories over things.
My ambition is to inspire and encourage you to unmask your fears and jump into the unknown.
Anna VanAgtmael | Retreat Host | Travel Designer